From A Dream to an Awakening !!

I always wondered what she'd be like

Would she have a Pristine Soul ?
Would she be as Delicate as Chui - Mui ?
Would she be Sweet as a Teddy ?
Would she be like the Rainbow, Naturally True and Beautiful ?
Would she have a heart as Innocent as a new Born ?
Would she be as Wonderful as the Promise of Spring ?
Would she be the Angel I always thought of ?

The Stars promised the answers
The Air carried the scent
The Ocean carried the undying spirit
The lightning ignited the Candle
And the Flame of Hope came alive

Typhoons came and went
Boundaries seemed impermeable
Time flew out of the window &
Water always seemed to seep out of the Dyke
But the tiny flame kept the quest alive,

In search of the the ultimate representation,
A Realization that would foretell the Beginning
the beginning,
Not of a season and
Not of a year Or that of a Life Time but
Of an era, An Era
Of Happiness and Joy
Of Love and Laughter
Of Tears with trust
Of Striking Surprises
Of Sky walking &
Of a new Awakening that was on its way
From real far away &
It Came..

It came with a Ray
The first one after a long Winter
Filled with promises,
Of a Hearty Triumph,
Beyond the realms of being Real
Actualization Dawned
and I was woken up,

With the sweet chirp of spring,
With a tang of Love, Came A Girl
The one that would enlighten and spread the sunshine
On me, my heart and my soul.

And Now that I am on my path of enlightenment and awakening..
and the realization that has dawned,
Here I share the truth that I discovered
about the dream that I had only imagined

UR thought makes me smile
UR touch makes me glow
UR smile makes me want to jump with joy
UR dance sends me to the Heavens
UR Smell gives me a HigH
UR LooK creates a jubiliation
UR Kiss makes me walk on Air
UR Hug dissolves me into U
U create an exuberation around U
that always keeps me on cloud Nine when I am with U :)

The Dreams' coming alive & the Flame holds its high
The Realization has struck &
Its too much for a lifetime
I've come up with a Question
Will you be by my side, Dear
I want to live this dream for ever and ever
With you Dearie, throughout a Star's Life-Line ???

A Few thoughts from deep within

the stars are wondering.,.
and the moon is going into a hiding..
the winds are changing direction and the sun is shning with all glory..

the birds are fluttering with joy..
the dew drops are spreading rainbows..
the flowers are waiting to be smelt..
and the winds are carrying somebody's essence..
and u know who is responsible for all this..

One sweet smile from one wonderful person Aditi..
hats off to this beautiful girl who came into my life with a bundle of happiness and will be with me forever for me to care for her as delicate as a dew drop on a leaf and not letting it fall..

Silence is....

Dedicated to Bharat Dravid..
one great friend.. who showed us how varied life could be..
.. He sent this gr8 set of lines which silently say a lot..

Silence is my Language now..

Silence is my language now,
there are a thousand things to say,
but how can I put them in words ?
'coz words... by their very nature,
are a limitation on the self.

I saw a land full of bright light and bliss,
Though i could not touch it or smell it,
It was like a dream and yet,
it was more real than this world,
it touched the deepest core of my heart
in a way i never imagined it could.

I yearn for the creator of this land,
a Being beyond comprehension,
who will bring such light and intensity in love,
for all us mortal creatures,
I yearn to hold His hand and walk,
along the sandy beaches of time never caring for anything else....

do not miss me...
For..who am I ? Here today, gone tommorow..
without a sign or trace,
if there is one...miss the eternal Self in you
That manifests itself in the love for all alike.
What is good and what is bad? All a child's play,
Awake,Rise above and realize the impermanence of such,
so there won't be any more sorrow to hold you back,

Silence is my language now....

Those few words..

Sometimes in Life, we should take decisions that are ruled and precided only by the heart.. Though not logical and the whole world can question every single move of yours.. trust me on this " Follow your heart and not your mind, as everytime you do so Love shall Defy Logic..!!!"

These are some of the words that I could muster about what I feel... there is definitely much more to say than what these lines can convey but for that special moment I experienced on 13th September..

From the Moment U entered my Life,
Nothing has ever been the way it used to be..

The days have started Glowing
& the Nights have been shining,
The wind carries your essence,
So full, So dense,
I can feel your every sense.

The moon reflects your eyesight & your warmth
The birds recite your words
The stars have copied the twinkle in your eye
Their feathers carry the heart of desire.

So Much to say, so much to hear...

The phone ring splashes on the ear
Tearing through the old fear, comes a new lightning
photosynthesizing every nerve and cell in my body to a greater height.

The atmosphere is so full of you,
Everything feels so light..
The classes never felt so right !
Every mighty empreror (read professor) refuses to fight,
they all bow down.. with a wink of your sight,
Every other atom of mine just says,
Oh Dear Aditi, touch me too!!

I wanna see your eyes that are larger than eternity,
I wanna hear your voice, to completely mesmerize,
I wanna feel your skin that is smoother than silk,
I wanna feel your breath to get a new life,
I wanna touch your soul, to complete my life

So here I am for a small little surprise,
standing before you, trotting across the globe for a short long time
all to say
Happy Birthday Dear
and I Love you...
:-)

I'm Back !!!

I'm Back......

The Question is Where and Why ??

Ok.. to make things a little more clear... IF all goes well.. and it will.. I am going to have a lot of breathing space from tommorrow. The Phase 1 of my tenure has paid of rich dividends...

The "more later" route I adopted was definitely not an excuse and so I'm Back to tell u a nice little story..
One Fine Morning on a November Day
Out came the sun with a shining ray,
So Bright & So White..
It was filling up the twilight.

It Bought with it,
a bundle of happiness
a long lost divinity
The world around was bound to change,
The Birds would sing & the rain would dance,
the air would whistle and the clouds would clap,
The heart would beat and the blood get pumped,
there would be life and there would be glory.

The world would smile and lay the red carpet,
You'd feel light and glide as a feather.
It would be fast,
the feeling would spread,
beyond the known and the unknown lands...

And then,
One fine day, came a dark cloud
ready to lay a long dark shadow over the vast green plain,
the world would turn pale.. and the feeling would revolt,
the brain would subside and the dark side would rise..

Without You..
The World stops turning,
the heart stops singing,
the birds stop chirping,
and the clouds stop moving,


The wind blows, but plain and harsh
where did the message disappear,
why did the turmoil ever happen ??

How in a day did the rain drop freeze,
how in a day did the light turn pale,
how in a day did the blood flow strain,
how in a day so small, did the world turn around ??
how in a day so small, did the world turn around ???

It was once well said,
Love thy neighbour & thy shall love thee,
But, how strong shall the heart beat free, with a stone in the arterie ?

With all this said,
there is still hope,
there shall be life,
there shall still be a reason to smile,
Thy love shall come,
Stronger than ever, bigger, and better,
"Hope" is the thing with feathers- that perches in the soul...
Hope is a waking dream.
...the stars will shine and
the wind shall blow
The heart would beat
and SO SHALL YOU...

The Phoenix

The only intention of having this title is to have some impact on the time I missed out on the Blogger. I just disappeared for some time, took a short break but may be the title may have some resemblence over the blog.

Nyways now that I am back... Life's taken a long huge U turn and has come up with a bag of surprises and new dimensions have hung on since my last blog. The month of march was eventful and i do intend to do some more writing on that some day. It was successful in a way that I got to see a lot of true faces behind a few well knit masks. Another lesson learned in the course of stay at Kgp. Moving On..

Time and tides wait for none. April follows and so does the election and post election drama, first at the gymkhana level and then at the Hall level. I could write a lot about both of them but may be will do that some other day. It was a failure and a victory of different sorts.

A new me is born. It was almost like a dream come true. I got elected as the President, R.K. Hall of Residence, IIT Kharagpur, one of the most pristine places on the campus and this in my view is not detable. Things continue and there is a small addition to my already busy life, but this addition just turns out to be really really special and is gaining more space in my head by the day and gaining control.
Things still move on and Here we come,.... to face another End semester Examination. I really feel like saying " Oh God!! not again..." Though my previous semester ended gloriously, this one was sure to create some level playing ground. More later.

Circa, May 1st 2005.
I wonder if I would ever miss on this date anyday in my life. Its not related to May day which actually announces the arrival of spring or also and more widely celebrated in honour of labour, but to the twists and turns my heart was going to have, all in a span of 24 hours. Those are probably the longest hours of my life when I just wanted to stare into the night sky and blast the world with a zillion questions and then hunt for answers.

But then, Celebrations always follow.. after all there's always a spring after every winter.
A new begining, a new chapter, a new look, and probably the foundation of a brand new life all started...and all over again. The special person makes a re-entry though the whole playground has been taken to a new level... I wonder what kind of prepositions my mind can come up with in weird or better put, different situations. Sometimes I too am fascinated. I declare to the world that she is my Girl Friend whether she takes it or not. KOOL !! ??? I wondered but didnt want to say...
On this day... when I look back......all I can say is.. VOW!! probably thats one of the best things I ever came up with...
Moving on...

Things moved slowly and steadily as she puts is today. My next few days disappear either conversating on the computer or on....??? I think thats the only option.

Here I am.. 9th May early Morning @ 2.00 am Rajamundry Station searching for a board which was supposed to have my name on it.. I am stranded in a new location with zilth knowledge of the local language and my mobile helps matters by going off.. locking the contact numbers of every person I knew on earth.
In desperation, never ever give up. The light at the end of the tunnel is not an illusion, the tunnel is.

Things move on and its
9th July, ITC Bhadrachalam House, Hyderabad.
I manage to stay alive and move. Thanks to the gruelling schedule I've been through the past two months. Thats on the work front. On the special front.. things look brighter than ever but i still wonder if there is light at the other end. The presentation rocks and the day ends with a bang.

19th July, Kgp Rocks!!

29th July.. The world becomes the lovliest place to live in. Trust me it does. Thanx to the deadly effort by a couple of friends, who understood a few other things and lead a new revolution in a couple of lives. No set of words could ever describe this feat.

3rd August, 2005..
I'll be back soon....

The Pages Of Our Life

This is a strange start for a first time blogger but I was planning to blog for quite some time now. The contemplative mood of mine is just struck back and so this was one of the finest times to begin with the million of things which define me and the lives of so many people around us.
To start with, the title here is just a reflection of the events and the kind of life we live here : Every new day scripts another page in our life and all the events however large and small have a certain influence on the way the future pages will be written and yes will obviously define the events and characters that define our being.

A little about myself is as follows. I just now happened to click on this link, thanks to the link displayed by the Blogger Profile. Most of the characteristics defined here are very very true as far as my nature is concerned. There are somethings in this write-up that actually stand up as solid fortified lines which tend to justify every small event I can ever recall from my entire childhood and my on going present life. It is a pretty long write-up and I could suggest skipping it for the time being.
http://www.thefengshuiconsultancy.co.uk/zodiac/year-boar.htm

The Page:
Life as we see it is a new begining everday. Every morning we rise and see ourselves dwell into the real world. We begin with our daily duties and activities which are essential for our survival and also for the fact that, these activities determine the path which we decide to follow at every point of time whether with full consciousness or not.
As for a very regular example, with every new sunrise, we are always left with an option on how we want to spend our day. A small self ignited boost can make a big difference on how the entire day is spent. This is a fact and we many times dont want to believe it or would like to run-away from it. But, these differntely begun days are also combined with days where we accept this same very fact with do much delight that we thank God for the fact that atleast there are somethings in life we are left to decide for.
The world sometimes seems so much easier to live with if there was something which could be beyond our control but this does not seem to be the case. Its always us and the decisions we make that define what our destiny will converge to ( that was in the broader sense) and coming back to the example would define how our day is spent. At times, we tend to get lost in the broader realms of life, that is when we start thinking and questioning our own beliefs, our existence and purpose of being here, on this planet. This question can play real tricks with the mind, it can make people do wonders and also at the same time create instances where you get a chance to justify every event of your life, whether good or bad.
For e.g., it will allow a person to devote his life towards what he believes in, may be create huge institutions for the benefit of mankind, or make contributions which can alter the lives of more than a few million people or atleast do things just for himself and his fellow beings to be happy. On the other hand the mind can also generate instances when nothing seems in control and you can only wish that for some short duration, may be a little long, until everything you can imagine gets back on track, something or some force or say God could actually come down and assure that I'm Here, Dont worry!!!